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for for
为
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the most explosive dating experience of
a lifetime six red-blooded Bachelors
一生中最爆炸性的约会经历六个热血单身汉
looking for love with one stunning babe
寻找一个令人惊叹的宝贝的爱情
she's called Miriam and she scores quite
她叫米里亚姆，当她参加时，她引起了很大的
a controversy when she took part in a
争议 一个
new dating show heard of our gu she's
新的约会节目听说了我们的 gu 她
called siram and center of massive
叫 siram 和大规模丑闻的中心
Scandal it's called Sky Television
它被称为天空电视台
reported 3/4 of a million pound weeks
报道了 3/4 百万英镑的周
they VI for her affections they kissed
他们 VI 为她的爱他们吻了
her apparently they got intimate with
她显然他们与
her there is a secret that the guys
她亲密有一个秘密，这些家伙
don't
不知道吗
know the six of us were the only ones
我们六个人是唯一
that knew exactly what it felt like
知道那种感觉的人，就像
we'd grown up overnight there was no
我们在一夜之间长大了一样，
laughing and joking at that point
那时没有笑声和玩笑，
everyone had been ly too okay I'll be
每个人都太好，我会的
right back go she's a te isn't
马上回去，她是个特，不是吗，
she she she's nice I think Sky won we
她人很好，我认为天空赢了，我们
trying to create a TV show with not a
试图制作一个电视节目，而不
real care about the
真正关心
consequences I'm not a woman I knew it I
后果，我不是女人，我知道我
was born as a
生来就是一个
man there's trying to create reality TV
伙计，他们试图制作真人秀节目
for people to
供人们
watch and there's putting a person over
观看，让一个人承受
so much stress and tension that they
如此多的压力和紧张，以至于他们
lose control to me is wrong so I was
失去控制，这对我来说是错误的，所以我
fully supportive of whatever we
完全支持我们
did the ones that have done this to us
所做的一切，那些用 End Mall 对我们这样做的人
with End Mall it was brighter
它是更明亮的
pictures Sky it was all all of those
图片天空是所有那些把
that put it
它放在
together everyone else puppets you know
一起其他人的傀儡你知道
let's get an injunction to stop the show
让我们获得一个禁令来阻止节目的
from coming
播出
out once the contestants returned home
一旦参赛者回到家
they kicked
他们就
off their lawyer Shillings wrote a
踢开了他们的律师希林斯写了一封
letter of
clim trying to make the case of how how
气候信 试图解释这个节目是多么令人
shocking how exploitive how blah blah
震惊、多么剥削、多么
blah this show
等等等等，
was how did you feel that at the time
你觉得当时
that the boys were taking legal action
那些男孩
for me
为我
personally I thought it was an
个人采取法律行动时，我感觉他们
overreaction and an unkind one given
反应过度，而且不友善，
that they were told up
因为他们 提前告知，
front there's going to be something you
你们
don't know about we didn't see it
不知道的事情我们没料到会
coming I was fairly confident we had a
发生，我非常有信心我们有一个
liable claim because these people had
责任索赔，因为这些人
been exposed to ridicule and contempt in
在制作人员面前遭受了嘲笑和蔑视，
front of a production
staff we also alleged that there had
我们 还声称
been a conspiracy to sexually assault
合谋性侵
them because of course they wouldn't
她们，因为
have consented to have intimate
relationships with her if they had
如果她们知道真实情况，当然不会同意与她发生亲密关系，
actually known the true
position so there wasn't what US lawyers
所以
call informed consent
when the solicitors told us that they
当律师告诉我们他们
thought it was conspiracy to commit
认为这是合谋时，不存在美国律师所说的知情同意 实施
sexual
性
assault there alarming words to come to
侵犯，那些令人震惊的话要说
come out I was telling myself you no you
出来，我告诉自己，不，
you you know what you've been through
你知道你经历了什么
and what you've experienced you know it
，经历了什么，你知道那
was a peck on the cheek with Miriam and
是米里亚姆脸颊上的一吻，
that was that was it you know that's as
就是这样 你知道它已经
far as it it
went but these are the lengths that
走到了这一步，但这是
they're having to go to as a collective
他们作为一个集体必须做到的，
we kind of had to be singing from the
我们必须唱
same hym
同一首赞美诗
[乐谱]，
sheet this was a big series for
这对天空来说是一个很大的系列，
sky and understandably having paid 1
可以理解
million for a series
为这部剧集支付了 100 万美元，
everybody wanted it
每个人都希望它能
aired but the transmission dates were
播出，但播出日期被
put on
hold and then the Press sort
搁置了，然后媒体
of decided to kick off as
决定开始播放
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well I was press some of
我当时是新闻界的记者，
it
from she made front page of the Sun and
她登上了《太阳报》的头版，
you can see the sort of General um
你 可以看到
attitudes of the time is all talking
当时的普遍态度都是
about language like could she fool you
谈论语言 她能骗你吗
she
她
is unlikely secrets of the new TV
不太可能新电视明星的秘密
star stinging the tail of new TV
刺痛新电视节目的尾巴
show the men were
那些人
hurt it's that thing of wanting Revenge
受伤了这就是想要复仇的事情
isn't
不是
it I understand it I
吗我理解我
feel judge them in any way I feel sorry
觉得以任何方式评判他们我为
that they felt so so angry and sad about
他们感到难过 对此感到非常愤怒和悲伤，
it it was like everything we were trying
就像我们试图推进的一切，
to
um move forward
with just blowing up in your
都只是在你
face the media were all saying that I
面前爆发，媒体都在说我
was wrong tricking the boys that this
错了，欺骗男孩们，这
was cruel
是残酷的
TV it all seemed too big how got I
电视，这一切似乎都太大了，我怎么会
battle against these huge media
与这些大型媒体
companies sometimes I just found myself
公司的斗争有时我发现自己
crying the solicitors were looking for
哭泣律师们正在寻找
anything that could be relevant that we
任何可能与我们
could use in the
case and they were uncovering things
案件相关的信息，他们正在揭露
about Miriam's past
有关米里亚姆过去的事情
we got called in by the solicitors they'
我们被律师叫来 他们
uncovered some
发现了一些
information they said that it was
信息，他们说这些信息
fundamental to the case
对案件至关重要。
oh this
哦，这张
picture look how beautiful she
照片看她多漂亮
was and so how old is she
，她多大了，
here probably 17 I
大概17岁，我
think this was probably like a month
想这大概是
after she arrived to
她到
La this one is when she do the
洛杉矶一个月后。 当她
porn she hat
拍色情片的时候，
she was like a I'll do it I'll try I
她就像一个我会做的 我会尝试，我
don't like it I don't going to do it
不喜欢，我不会
again in Hollywood they were waiting for
再在好莱坞这样做了，他们在等
me to turn
我
18 producers were all on my back like
18岁，制片人都在背后支持我，就像
please we offer you this much money can
我们给你这么多钱，
you do
你能做到吗
this it was Christmas time and I was
圣诞节的时候，我
longing to go and see my family in
很想去墨西哥看望我的家人，
Mexico but I wanted to go home with
但我想带着
money and show them that I was
钱回家，让他们知道我
succeeding in
在生活中取得了成功，
life so I agreed to make a
所以我同意拍一部
movie you're just the perfect woman the
电影，你就是一个完美的女人，
way the way you
就像你 像
smile the way you
你笑的方式一样微笑
laugh I've never dreamt of a more
我从来没有梦想过一个更
perfect
完美的
being worshiping
人崇拜
you I wanted so much to make something
你我非常想
of my life
在我的生活中有所成就
but I'm ashamed of what
但我对发生的事情感到羞耻
happened our solistas were showing raw
我们的独唱者在
pornographic material with Miriam in
里面播放了米里亚姆的原始色情材料
it and I don't know the background but
并且 我不知道背景，但
what I do know is if it was me I would
我知道的是，如果是我，我肯定
have been absolutely livid
会非常愤怒，
they thought that this was a bit of a a
他们认为这对我们来说是一个小小的
win for us that they could use this in
胜利，他们可以利用这一点
the case
to lean on the sexual assault with a bit
来证明性侵犯的罪行。
more gravity I guess um and as lists
我想这更严肃一点，因为名单
knew that they could use the tabloids to
知道他们可以利用小报来
Aid
帮助
them but yeah it's not very nice
他们，但是是的 想想真不是件好事，
thinking it's not nice thinking back
回想起来真不是件好事，
about it cuz it again somebody else is
因为又有人被
being used as a porn I know it was for
当作色情片了，我知道这是为
us as the
我们
client but it's sad that Miram got
客户准备的，但很遗憾米拉姆被
brought into
带入了
it for the Press it's all done
这是为媒体准备的，一切都结束了
to be demeaning and derogatory and
贬低、贬损和
judgmental against
评判
her and depict those contributors as
她，把那些贡献者描绘成
poor innocent men
可怜的无辜男人，
Sky turned around and they said look we
天空转过身来，他们说，看，我们
can see that Lads are really upset we're
可以看到，小伙子们真的很难过，我们
obviously very sorry about that uh but
显然对此感到非常抱歉，但是
we're very keen to still air the
我们非常希望继续播出
show for sky this program now had to air
天空电视台的这个节目现在必须播出，
because it was being talked about and
因为它正在被讨论，
it's kind of like a gift people are
这有点像一份礼物，人们
going to watch this show and if that
会看这个节目，如果这
means paying the
意味着要向
contributors you know so be it
投稿者支付费用，那就这样吧，
there were reports that um you guys have
有报道称，你们
got 3
有 300
million yeah no you didn't get any of
万，是的，你没有得到
that no it wasn't as much as 3 million
这些，没有那么多，
um I think it was it was in and around
嗯，我想大概是
uh 500,000 and we were just like okay
50 万左右，我们当时就觉得，好吧，
that's quite a hefty
这是一笔相当大的
amount the solicitors took pretty much
数目，律师拿走了相当多的钱 很多
50% cuz it was a no in no fee and then
50% 因为这是一笔不收任何费用的买卖，然后
we divy up 250,000 between us none of us
我们分了25万美元，
at that moment were probably thinking
那时我们可能都没有
about Miriam in fact I can guarantee
想过 Miriam，事实上我可以保证
none of us were thinking about mirum
我们都没有想过 mirum，
we're all thinking about
我们都在想着
ourselves do you regret that
自己，对吧 后悔
now I don't
现在我并不
regret suing the
后悔起诉该
show cuz I still think
节目因为我仍然认为
that it wasn't handled in the right way
它没有得到正确的处理
the regret comes
后悔随之而来
with and only how it affected Miram
只有它如何影响了米拉姆
she was the girl of their
她是他们梦中的女孩
dreams until her secret was
直到她 秘密被
revealed the new controversial dating
揭露了，新的有争议的约会
show that hit the
节目登上了
headlines I first heard about the show
头条，我第一次听说这个节目是
back in 200 3 when I was actually in The
在2003年，当时我在
Newsroom flicking through the day
新闻编辑室翻阅
newspapers obviously at that stage I
日报，显然在那个阶段我
hadn't come
还没有出
out and I think I was actually a little
柜，我想 我读的时候其实有点
bit embarrassed reading it and I was
尴尬，我有点紧张
kind of looking around nervously
地环顾四周，
thinking I wonder if anyone's noticing
想着是否有人注意到
that I'm paying too much attention to
我太关注
this
这个
story I had been so starved of anybody
故事了，我太渴望任何
trans being being visible it was just
变性人被看到，这真是
amazing it was mindblowing to somebody
太神奇了 曾是 对我这样的人来说，这真是令人震惊，
like me but first to our top story
但首先是今晚我们头条新闻的
tonight staff at car's 2em and I thought
工作人员在汽车的 2em，我想
well great if I come out in 5 years Time
如果我在 5 年后出来那就太好了，
by then there'll have been maybe 100
到那时，
mirams in the paper or on TV and things
报纸或电视上可能会有 100 个 miram，事情
will be a lot better and I selfishly
会 好多了，自私地说，多亏了 Miriam，我的
will have an easier life thanks to
生活会更轻松，
Miriam so and I kept looking in the
所以我一直在查看
listing
清单，
to double check the day that it was
仔细检查它上映的日期，
going to be on it was like building up
就像为
to the World Cup
世界杯
final there's something about Miram
决赛做准备一样，Miram 将于
starts Sunday 22nd of February on Sky
22 日星期日开始 2 月在 Sky
one I couldn't wait to see that show I
One 播出的节目中，我迫不及待地想看这个节目，我
was hoping that it would just people
希望人们会
would just just fall in love with
爱上
her I first met Miriam in 2001 writing
她，我第一次见到 Miriam 是在 2001 年，当时我
songs for Miriam's band speed
为 Miriam 的乐队 Speed
Angels kind of kept in touch here and
Angels 写歌，一直保持着联系。
there and I just remember uh getting a
我记得我接到了
you know a phone call from Miriam and
Miriam 打来的电话，
saying come and watch my
说来看我的
show I can remember being at work and
节目，我记得当时我正在上班，然后
rushing home making sure that there was
赶回家，确保
nobody in the house cuz I just wanted
家里没有人，因为我只想有属于
that time for me
自己的时间，
Miriam and this was going to be the
Miriam 和 这是 那
moment when everything turned
一刻一切都变得
fantastic I worked at my local pub at
美妙起来，我当时在当地的酒吧工作
the time and they said you know we'd
，他们说，你知道，我们
love to do like a a grand like a grand
很乐意做一场盛大的
showing we had
表演，我们喝了
champagne um we were having a laugh and
香槟，我们在笑，
you know I think she was nervous I think
你知道，我认为她 很紧张，我想
that was the moment when you know hey
那一刻你知道
this is real it's on
这是真的，它在
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TV tonight the most explosive dating
电视上，今晚是人生中最爆炸性的约会
experience of a life type six
经历，六种
red-blooded Bachelors looking for love
血气方刚的单身汉寻找爱情，
with one stunning babe
和一个令人惊艳的宝
Miriam I was invested from the start she
贝米里亚姆在一起，我投入了 从一开始她
look
看起来就
amazing but this is no ordinary dating
很棒，但这不是普通的约会
show because Miriam is no ordinary woman
节目，因为米里亚姆不是普通的女人，
yeah I was excited to see how it made
是的，我很高兴看到它让
you feel Aaron is a 22-year-old chef
你感觉如何亚伦是一位
from chelsford in Essex love making
来自埃塞克斯切尔斯福德的 22 岁厨师，喜欢让
people gig off now that makes my da when
人们演出 当
I see somebody
我看到有人
laughing I like PE slim women dark
笑的时候，我会喜欢 PE 苗条的女人黑
hair this is Toby a 23-year-old
头发这是托比，一个 23 岁的
recruitment consultant from Shor in
招聘顾问，来自苏塞克斯的肖尔，
Sussex I think I'm a fairly unique
我想我是一个相当独特的
character of course he want to go for an
角色，当然他想找一个
attractive girl who doesn't my mother
有吸引力的女孩 我妈妈不是
absolutely loved uh me being on TV and
非常喜欢 呃，我上了电视，
so she was very proud the highs the lows
所以她很自豪，高潮和低谷，
oh my God the jealousy and the
哦天哪，嫉妒和
passion there is a secret that the guys
激情，有一个男人
don't know I was fixated I was
不知道的秘密，我很执着，我很
obsessed okay
痴迷，好吧，
Bravo super I was hoping for a really
太棒了，我希望得到一个真正
kind of
善良的 有
dignified chance for her to find true
尊严的机会让她找到
love and guys would say oh yeah well
真爱，男人们会说，哦是的，
trans women are fine they're women well
变性女人很好，她们是女人，
I date a
我和一个变性
transwoman but as the show wore
女人约会，但随着剧情的
on darker elements came into it Miriam
推进，黑暗元素开始出现，米里亚姆
is careful to cover herself up enough so
小心翼翼地掩饰自己 足以让
Tom doesn't realize he's on a date with
汤姆没有意识到他正在和
someone who has more than bumps on a
一个胸部有多个肿块的人约会，
chest and it was
这是
degrading I I I felt that trans were
有辱人格的，我觉得变性人
once again being pitched to the world as
再次被推销给世界，
as not real with Miriam in such close
因为米里亚姆离得太近了，
proximity there is always a danger that
总是 危险的是，
aam will feel her secret pressing
aam 会感觉到她的秘密压迫
against
着
him
他
and instead of me feeling better after
，看完节目后，我并没有感觉好些，
watching the show I I was more scared
我更
about what the future might hold for me
害怕未来会给我带来什么，
the show they're all talking about is
他们都在谈论的节目是
something about Miriam in which a
关于 Miriam 的，其中一位
transsexual tries to trick other men
变性人试图 诱骗其他男人
into liking her here are the lads
喜欢她，这是小伙子们
getting their first glimpse of The
第一次看到
Gorgeous Miriam if you'd like to take a
美丽的米里亚姆，如果你想
look through these binoculars you will
通过这些双筒望远镜看一看，你会
see
看到
Miriam yeah but if you look a bit more
米里亚姆，是的，但如果你再
closely C people talked about there
仔细看一看，人们谈论了
something about Miriam it was everywhere
米里亚姆的一些事情，它无处不在
it did its job it was about getting
它完成了它的工作，它是为了获得
subscriptions for Sky one please welcome
Sky one 的订阅，请欢迎
the lady that's on the front of today's
今天太阳报头版的那位女士
Sun newspaper Miriam and the show's
Miriam 和节目
producer Remy
制作人 Remy
blumer best was her coming out to the
blumer，最棒的是她向世界公开自己的身份，
world it was her journey her story
这是她的旅程，她的故事，
people used that story and her as a
人们利用这个故事， 她是一个
product to make money whether it was
赚钱的产品，无论是
selling a newspaper that was negative
出售一份对她有负面报道的报纸，
about her or putting her on a TV channel
还是把她放在一个
where it was supposedly celebrat she was
据称是庆祝的电视台上，她就是
the product yes she's called Miriam and
产品，是的，她叫米里亚姆，
she's caused quite a controversy when
当她参加一个节目时，她引起了很大的争议
she took part in a new dating show the
新的约会节目，
one they all went for was Miriam a
他们都喜欢米里亚姆，一个
21-year-old girl now this is the story
21 岁的女孩，现在这是一个
of the chance to kiss this amazingly
亲吻这个美丽得惊人的
beautiful girl who turned out not to be
女孩的故事，而这个女孩后来却发现不是
a girl does anyone know what the show's
女孩，有人知道这个节目的
called kiss me on a
叫我吻一个
man that should have really been the
男人，这应该是
giveaway should it was always it's the
赠品，应该总是这是
trans person's fault they're the baddy
变性人的错，他们是坏人，
you're deceivers you're tricksters
你是骗子，你是骗子，
frauders is it a fellow who's a woman or
骗子，这是一个男人，是一个女人，还是
is it a woman both that's why I'm
两个都是女人 我为什么要
talking about it but what do you mean is
谈论它，但你是什么意思，
it a preop is it a transexual a
它是术前变性人，是
transvesite is it a lady boy is it
异装癖者，是人妖，是
anodite you about it he's got the top
阳极氧化，你觉得他有
half but not the bottom half that just
上半身，但没有下半身，
looks a mess
看起来很乱，
I was watching all this unfold and I
我 看着这一切的展开，我
thought I can't do this it would destroy
想我不能这样做，这会毁了
my life well of course the Border bus is
我的生活，当然，边境巴士又
back on its travels I actually think
开始旅行了，我实际上认为
after the show it probably set me back
节目结束后，它可能让我退后
coming out by a a few
years and just my heart going out to
几年，只是我的心 去见
Miriam and I thought my God this is a
米里亚姆，我想天哪，这是一个
dream turned into a
梦想变成了
nightmare if the argument is that well
噩梦，如果争论的焦点是
we just dumped her what me but you know
我们刚刚抛弃了她，但你知道
Bri picture just dumped her you know
布里刚刚抛弃了她，你知道
they exploited this poor woman and you
他们利用了这个可怜的女人，你
know they just dumped her and left her
知道他们刚刚抛弃了她 她离开了她
where were we going to put
我们要把她放在哪里
her after the British media had done
在英国媒体做了那些
what they had done why would we do that
事情之后，我们为什么要这样对待
to her that really would be exploitive
她，这真的是剥削，
so I think people have to you know ask
所以我认为人们必须问
themselves that question and think that
自己这个问题，想想
one
I flew back to New York to get a away
我飞回纽约去远离
from the
press all kinds of rumors and lies were
媒体散布了各种各样的谣言和谎言，
being ped about me it was a really hard
那是一段非常艰难的
time I felt as if I had no voice it felt
时期，我觉得自己没有发言权，感觉
that all the world was against
全世界都在与
me watch me watch me watch me
我作对，看着我，看着我，看着我，
after she came back to New
她回来后 在
York we started hanging out more and
纽约，我们开始更多地出去玩，
soon after she just started to go out a
不久之后她就开始经常出去玩了，
lot we would go out to like nightclubs
我们会去夜店，
and you know then it turned into
你知道，然后就变成了
partying but she would party and party
聚会，但她会连续好几天聚会，
for
days
unfortunately for Miriam the show did
不幸的是，这场演出确实给 Miriam
cause a lot of BTSD with her television
带来了很多 患有 BTSD 的电视
can eat you and spit you
可以吃掉你然后吐出
out but she still had to make a living
来，但她仍然需要谋生，
she still had to pay her bills and um a
她仍然需要支付账单，嗯，
lot of transs including myself were
包括我在内的很多变性人都
involved in sex work because there's not
参与了性工作，因为我们没有
a lot of options for
太多的选择
us Maran put up a million ads I was a
Maran 当时我是一个 Craigslist 网站，
Craigslist at the time
you know a lot of clients look for a
你知道很多客户都在寻找
girl with a little extra you know what I
女孩有点额外的东西，你知道我的
mean like it's only what you got between
意思，就像他们只
your leges that's all they care
关心你腿间的东西，
about and it's it's sad to say but you
说起来很难过，但你
know when you're in that lifestyle
知道当你过着那种生活方式时，
you're dealing with some serious people
你会和一些严肃的人打交道
that are
shady I mean there's just a an array of
阴暗的，我的意思是，
bad things that can
可能会发生一系列糟糕的事情，
happen you just going to get that one
你只需要找到那
guy
个人
somebody heard that Miriam got
有人听说 Miriam 被
shot we ran to BW
枪击了，我们跑到 BW
hospital I said has anybody come here in
医院，我说有没有人来过这里，
here trans that got shot no there's no
被枪击的变性人，没有 没有
trans that got shot I was like yesterday
变性人被枪击，我就像昨天一样，
this week did somebody
本周有
transgender come in to the hospital at
变性人来医院吗？
all this week and then one person goes
然后一个人说
yeah we did get a person like 5 days
是的，我们确实在5天前得到了一个人，
ago now the ignorance comes out
现在无知的废话被揭露出来，
and they're like we have a male
他们就像我们一样 有一个男性
unidentified uh think Latin and they
身份不明呃认为拉丁人
they fell four stories and they're like
他们从四层楼摔下来而且他们
in critical condition I was like wait
情况危急我就像等
what
什么
what for a second third and fourth I
什么第二个第三和第四个我
think it was
想它
like that apartment or that apartment it
就像那间公寓或那间公寓它
was one of the big ones that I remember
是其中之一 我记得
she had she had wide
她有大窗户，有宽大的
Windows to fall from there to the bottom
窗户 从那里掉到地底，
that's that's a big
那是很大的
drop it just gives me the chills like
落差，光是想想就让我不寒而栗
just thinking about it
yeah someone came and knock at my
是的，有人来敲我的
door and as soon as I open the door he
门，我一开门，
was he had a hammer on his hand and he
他就拿着锤子 手，他
just start beating beating me up in the
就开始打我，打我的
face and I was bleeding just bleeding
脸，我一直在流血，一直在流血，
has lots of blood I said to him what
有很多血，我对他说
what do you want you want my money
你想要什么你想要我的钱
here's my money you want my jewelry
这是我的钱你想要我的珠宝
here's my jewelry take whatever you want
这是我的珠宝你想要什么就拿什么
he's like when my friend comes he's
他 就像当我的朋友来的时候，他
going to do whatever he wants to
会对你做任何他想做的事，
you then I was like oh my God I'm going
然后我就像哦天哪我
to die you know I was like you feel it
要死了你知道我就像你感觉到了
you feel it inside that you get so
你内心感觉到了你如此
scared that you like this is my anend
害怕你就像这是我的 最后
they're going to kill me I guess I don't
他们要杀了我，我想我不
know what happened
知道发生了什么，
I I F I don't know
我不知道
I was
unconscious when I walked into the
当我走进ICU时我已经失去知觉了，
ICU I couldn't recognize
我认不出
her and uh I couldn't believe it I was
她，我简直不敢相信，我当时
like who did this to you she didn't want
就像是谁干的 她不想
to tell me she was just like like almost
告诉我这件事，她只是
like she knew but she didn't want to see
知道 但她不想看到
anything I should brain surgery her half
任何东西，我应该做脑部手术，她的半个头
head was shaped everything was fractured
被塑造成一切都被打碎了，
like her hands her fingers her arms her
就像她的手、手指、胳膊、
legs her neck
腿、脖子一样，
everything even when that had happened
即使发生了这些事情，
she was never depressed or sad about
她也从来没有因此而沮丧或悲伤，
it and she couldn't have movement the
她不能
way she could so her hand was like this
她可以有动作，所以她的手是这样的
and this girl literally took her makeup
，这个女孩真的拿着她的
brush was like this like the she learned
化妆刷，就像她
thought herself how to do makeup I'm
自己学会了如何化妆，我
like this like girl how are you doing
就像这样，女孩你现在怎么样了
this right
now it was just
amazing she never gave up she always had
太神奇了，她从不放弃，她总是有
that Spirit to keep on
那种继续前进的精神，
going so I just can't see how she would
所以我就是不明白她怎么会
get defeated and take her
被打败，然后自杀，
life it's so out of character
这太不符合她的性格了，
no no come on come come here not
不不不，来吧来吧，
yet in 2008 when me was a struggle to
2008年还不行，那时我
survive after the
袭击发生后，
attack I was getting engaged I was ready
我为了生存而挣扎，我订婚了，准备
to getting
married she come to see me
结婚了，她来看我，
and I don't know how like three four
我不知道是怎么回事，大约三
weeks later when she was here with me
四周后，她来这里
living with me and
和我住在一起，还有
MTV the reality show something of a
MTV 的真人秀节目 一个
medium the green that show from okay to
中等绿色的节目从好的到
America she didn't even know that the
美国她甚至不知道这个
show was going to be over here she was
节目会在这里举行她
kind of like oh whatever the show they
有点像哦不管他们是什么节目
don't never pay me good
从来没有付给我
enough but then she realized okay
足够的钱，但后来她意识到
something about me and this is my show
我的一些事情，这是我的节目，
this is my name so I can make money over
这是我的名字，所以我可以通过
the
show the show go all over the
节目赚钱，节目会传遍
world so I'm going to go travel all over
世界各地，所以我要去各地旅行
world I don't think that she was looking
我认为她当时不再
for fame
追求名气了，
anymore at the time she realized that
她意识到
she want to make money she want to build
自己想要赚钱，她想
her house in Mexico help her family and
在墨西哥建房子，帮助她的家人，
then boom she had another BB job she
然后她又得到了一份 BB 工作，她
gave her a light position and she looks
给了她一个轻松的职位 她又看起来
great
很棒了，
again all the clients that go crazy they
所有的客户都疯狂地
want to see her she was selling it she
想要看到她，她在卖它，她
was really smart she was really really
真的很聪明，她真的真的很
smart business
聪明，
woman she was selling her product medium
她正在为电视节目推销她的产品，中型
Rivera for the TV show something of
里维拉，某种
medum there was a
中型的东西，那是
the beginning of the end for
开始 的终结
her
她的
fore fore spee
前面的
C
C
my mom believed that it was someone
我妈妈相信有人
trying to kill her but I don't think
想杀她，但我
so I
don't I I really don't think
不这么认为，我真的不这么认为 你不
so why does your mom believe
这么认为，为什么你妈妈相信
that Daniel tolds us uh that U mm was
丹尼尔告诉我们，呃，呃，
involved
参与了
uh with the mop first in New York and
先是在纽约，
then in Las Vegas who was Danielle
然后在拉斯维加斯，他是 Danielle
Danielle quero he's a friend he was a
Danielle quero，他是 Miriam 的朋友，他是他
friend of Miriam for a long long
的朋友，很久
time but he also was um this kind of
以前，但他也是那种
tricky person you
狡猾的人，你
know Colombian guy most older than
知道，哥伦比亚人，比
Miriam he loves like transgender wom's
Miriam 年纪大，他喜欢 变性女人
Daniel is at real estate he have
丹尼尔从事房地产行业，他
apartments in New York and he was in
在纽约有公寓，他爱上了
love of
M she loved him of course but not like
M，她当然爱他，但不是
the way that Daniel wanted
丹尼尔想要的那样，
it he passed away
他最近去世了，
recently oh my God he got so old
哦天哪，他太老了，
I mean his ass was old like before he
我的意思是他的屁股 就像在他之前一样老了，
just I'm I knew her for almost 23 years
我认识她差不多 23 年了，
I met her in Mexico she was 16 years old
我在墨西哥遇见她，她 16 岁，
I think 16 she was going to turn
我想 16 岁，她快
17 she was gorgeous I never SE a woman
17 岁了，她太漂亮了，我从来没有见过一个女人
was so
如此
beautiful but I was much older obviously
美丽，但我比她大很多 显然，
so at the beginning it was you know
一开始是
friends and stuff like that and then I
朋友之类的，然后我把
brought it back from from Mexico to to
她从墨西哥带回了
California she got some work in
加利福尼亚，她在
California with some people in the movie
加利福尼亚和一些电影界的人一起工作，
industry and then I moved her to New
然后我把她带到了
York and from the friend she became my
纽约， 朋友，她成了我的
girlfriend
女朋友
and that's
，就
it I want to make sure that everybody
这样，我想确定 大家都
knows that there was no way h
知道，警察
the chief and commiss side no way
局长和委员那边绝对没有办法，
everything is wrong the way they the
一切都是错的，
police said that that it happens mind
警察说，事情就是这样，请
you she could not move the left arm
注意，她不能移动左臂，
because she had
因为她出了
accident and we go like this
事故，我们就
this that's it that's as much as you can
这样了 这就是你能
close it how the hell can you hang
关闭它的最大限度，你怎么能不
yourself up without one without
挂断电话呢，没有一个，没有
one as much as I can't stand him I
一个，尽管我无法忍受他，但我
actually like hear his side
真的喜欢听他的那边
and yeah that doesn't make any sense
，是的，这没有任何意义，
it's not humanly possible for it to
这在人类看来是不可能的 事情
happen the way that they are giving the
发生的方式，他们给出了
details of she met somebody
她在拉斯维加斯遇到某人的细节，
in in Vegas what the wrong
错误的
people that took it down the wrong
人把事情带上了错误的
path get money get money get money get
道路，得到钱，得到钱，得到
money get money get money get money
钱，得到钱，得到钱，得到钱，
fast cars gold bars fast love rockars
快车，金条，快速爱情摇滚
late nights late flights red lights Love
晚了 晚上晚班飞机红灯爱情
Bites she was killing it in meas she was
咬人她很厉害她
making a lot of
赚了很多
money because she was medium for the TV
钱因为她是电视节目的媒介
show so she have a lot of clients
所以她有很多客户
she was living in a penous in the hot by
她独自住在炎热的贫困地区
herself her closet was full of like
她的衣柜里堆满了 喜欢
expensive
昂贵的
clothes she called me every day show me
衣服，她每天都会打电话给我，给我看她
the things that she
buy she was so happy like nothing would
买的东西，她很高兴，好像没有什么能
stop
阻止
her I went to Las Vegas
她，我去了拉斯维加斯 我
like three or four times to see
去过拉斯维加斯三四次，
her the last time that I went she
上次我去的时候，她
introduced me to a guy she just said
把我介绍给了一个男人，她说
that he was a friend and he owns the
他是我的朋友，他是
apartment where Mir was leing something
米尔住的公寓的老板，
was happening there um because she's
那里发生了一些事情，因为她
starting to look
开始看起来不
different she was too skinny and
一样了 太瘦了，
then after that just everything just
然后一切都
start falling apart
开始崩溃了
minan me this guy he was a male escort
minan 我这个家伙他是一个男伴游
she stayed daring him she told me that
她一直在挑战他她告诉我
he's really handsome they start working
他真的很帅他们开始
together they start making money
一起工作他们开始
together and then she went to that dark
一起赚钱然后她去了 在拉斯维加斯的那条黑暗
path in
道路上，
Vegas she started doing really heavy
她开始吸食大量
drugs and she start meeting a really bad
毒品，并开始遇到一些非常坏的
people we see her as a gold mine because
人，我们把她看作一座金矿，因为
mam was a celebrity that
那时妈妈是个名人，
time and they w a piece of
他们从中分得一杯羹，
that and
then she disappear
然后她就消失了
um in my 15 years working in the
嗯，在我 15 岁的时候 在 b 部门工作的这些年里，
bsection there have been many
有过很
mirams Miriam would be referred to as a
多米拉姆，米里亚姆被称为
renegade meaning that she's on her own
叛徒，这意味着她孤身一人，
she's not following any rules she's not
不遵守任何规则，不听从
answering to anybody she's keeping all
任何人的指挥，所有的
the money herself and she's calling her
钱都是她自己赚的，她
own shots and they can make anywhere
自己做主，他们可以 任何地方
from 50 to $70,000 a week
每周 5 万到 7 万美元，
but it's going to be very dangerous
但这样做非常危险，
because it's disrespecting a pimp and
因为这是对皮条客的不尊重，而且
pimps are difficult to get away
皮条客很难摆脱，
from like you're dealing with gangsters
就像你在与武装的歹徒打交道一样，
armed you can be tortured you can be
你可能会被折磨，你可能会被
kidnapped and taken to another city or
绑架，带到另一个城市或
you could end up dead you're always
你可能会死，你总是要
going to have to be looking over your
小心谨慎
shoulder
6 seven months later after she
6 七个月后，她
disappeared she called
失踪后，她打电话给
me really
我，非常
nervous I'm almost
紧张，我几乎
crying she's telling me that she need
哭了，她告诉我她需要
help she's in Las Vegas airport and she
帮助，她在拉斯维加斯机场，她
need to leave Las Vegas as soon as she
需要 尽快离开拉斯维加斯几个
can hours later she was in Los
小时后，
Angeles when I saw
当我在洛杉矶看到
her my God she wasn't
她时，我的天，她不是
medium she was
中等身材，她
a like
就像
a bones
一根骨头一样
walking so skin so tiny chick bones
走路，皮肤那么细小，就像小鸡的骨头
R and yeah it wasn't the same me it
R，是的，这和我以前不一样了 她
wasn't my sister
不再是我的妹妹了
anymore and I hold her
，我抱着她
and we went to my
，我们去了我的
apartment she keep telling me these
公寓，她一直告诉我这些
crazy
疯狂的
stories that she was in danger she
故事，说她处于危险之中，她
wasn't feel safe
感觉不安全，
they come for me they come for me they
他们来找我，他们来找我，他们
come for me they're going to come for me
来找我，他们
they're going to take me again and I was
他们会来抓我 我
like what's going on relax nobody's
又问，发生了什么事，冷静点，没人
going to take you but at the same time
会带你走的，但与此同时，
she was
她喝着她
drinking like whatever alcohol that she
can find in the
能在家里找到的任何酒，
house then she told me that she she was
然后她告诉我，她被
kidnapped they grab her then they bring
绑架了，他们抓住了她，然后把
her to this house outside the Vegas
她带到了这个 拉斯维加斯外的房子里
and there was a a lot of guards with
有很多带枪的警卫，
guns they make it do drugs all the time
他们让它一直吸毒，
and then make it keep it drunk all the
然后让它一直喝醉，
time and they make it work day and
他们让它日夜工作，
night every day all
每天一整天，
day she was follow me
她有时会跟着我
down sometimes she is lay down in the
躺在
tub and they kill uh chickens or or baby
浴缸里，他们杀了鸡，或者婴儿
go
去信
some kind of religion like a wish
某种宗教，比如一个
religion called
叫做
Sania and the Sania priest was telling
萨尼亚的许愿宗教，萨尼亚的牧师告诉
her that she was csed and this evil
她，她被诅咒了，这个邪恶的
spirit that was Haunting
灵魂在困扰着
her so she she told me all these crazy
她[掌声]，所以她 告诉了我所有这些疯狂的
stories right and I don't know if uh she
故事，我不知道她
was saying the true or she wasn't high
说的是真的还是她没有
in drugs I was confused you didn't know
吸毒我很困惑你不知道该
what to believe I don't know what
相信什么我不知道
exactly I don't know what to
我到底不知道什么 知道该
believe we're in the suburbs in the East
相信什么我们在
end of town and normally I wouldn't
城东的郊区 通常我不会
drive in this
开车经过这个
neighborhood there's a large amount of
街区，
gang activity in this
这个地区帮派活动猖獗，
area the house here on the corner is
where we conducted an investigation
我们调查了拐角处的房子，发现
where they were operating a house
他们经营着一家
brothel and as you can see here as we
妓院，当我们
pull up the garage do is open and you
把车停在车库时，你可以看到 做的是开放的，你
can tell that the house is kind of run
可以看出房子有点
down we were told that the girls were
破旧，我们被告知这些女孩是
being held against their will through
通过
santoria or uh
圣托里阿或
Witchcraft and the fear that a curse
巫术被强行关押的，人们担心
will be placed on them if they leave or
如果她们离开或者
they go to the
去
police see how the front door of the
警察看到房子的前门
house is on the side perfect
在侧面，
location you can park right there on the
位置很好，你可以把车停在
side and take care of your business get
侧面，处理好你的事，然后
back in your car and you show up at home
回到你的车上，
with your
带着
milk most of these guys aren't going to
牛奶回到家，这些人中大多数不是 她们不会
come to a house brothel for oral sex
去妓院进行口交，
they're going to come here for
她们会来这里进行
intercourse so maybe you're looking at
性交，所以也许你正在考虑
200 bucks 150
200美元150
bucks uh and what would the girls get
美元，那么女孩们会得到什么呢？
what would they get nothing
in prostitution the money goes to the
卖淫什么也得不到，钱都给了
house and a lot of that money earned in
房子，
these illegal operations goes back to
这些非法操作赚到的钱大部分都回到了
Mexico I want you to have a look at this
墨西哥，我想 你看一下这篇
news article
新闻文章，
because I think it might be connected to
因为我觉得它可能和
Miriam's story
米里亚姆的故事有关，
yes that's exactly the story that M told
是的，这正是米里亚姆告诉
me and what is that story pretty much
我的故事，那是什么故事，
everything she told
她告诉
me the sacrifice
我的几乎所有事情，祭祀
animals
动物
courses sex
课程，性
workers sex
工作者，性
traffickers I cannot believe this has
贩子，我简直不敢相信 这件事
happened to the me and the was when I
发生在我身上，当我表现出来的时候，
show
I I was really deep inside I was hoping
我内心深处希望
that she probably may have all the story
她可能知道所有的故事，
but now seeing that this is true she's
但现在看到这是真的，她太
horrible wow my poor sister
可怕了，哇，我可怜的妹妹
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one day I was at
一天我在
work and when I got
工作 当我回到家时，
home it was Miriam in the
米里亚姆
house she doesn't seem afraid because
在家，她看起来并不害怕，因为
she doesn't like to show that she was
她不喜欢表现出她的
afraid but I I think that definitely she
害怕，但我认为她肯定
was hiding
在隐藏
something I don't know if she was
一些事情，我不知道她是否在
running away from someone or from
逃避某人 或者来自
something she just settled down nous you
她刚刚安定下来，你
again like if it was nothing happened
又像如果什么都没发生过，
she don't want to be
她不想成为
M she's a big fish in this small
M，她是这个小P里的一条大鱼，
P I really thank you so much for
我真的非常感谢你
watching my TV
看我的电视
show for she was drinking all the
节目，因为她喝了所有的酒
time and she continued doing drugs over
她当时继续在
there you know
那里吸毒，你知道
no I love you
吗，我爱你，
bit she told me I'm going to I'm going
她告诉我，我 我要
to get up Daniel I promise to you I'm
站起来丹尼尔我向你保证我
going to stay over here in Mexico for a
会在墨西哥呆
while and you will see me I'm going to
一段时间你会看到我我要
be I'm Survivor I'm going to be me again
成为幸存者我要再次做回我自己
ni me mar and I just wanted to see you
我只是想见你，
is put yourself
together manage my darling get it
振作起来，管理好我的亲爱的，振作
together
起来
that day was 9:00 in the
那天是早上 9 点，
morning and she
call he says H listen I have a problem
打电话给他说 H 听着，我有一个问题，
I've been eaing blood all
我一直在流血
night I said wait a minute go to the
晚上我说等一下马上去看
doctor
医生，
immediately so I called an Uber and I
于是我叫了一辆 Uber
send it to a hospital
送她去医院，
I told her call me after
我告诉她 2 点后给我打电话，
2 at exactly 2: p.m. she called and I
当时正是下午 2 点整。 她打来电话，我
went to get the phone and I I missed a
去拿电话，我错过了一个
phone and at 8:00 they called me they
电话，8点的时候他们打电话给我，
said that Mar had kill
说Mar
herself you tell me you get a call at
自杀了，你告诉我你9点接到一个电话
9:00 saying that she's sping blood she's
说她流血了，她
going away to a doctor and 8:00 she's
要去一个 医生，8:00 她
there why would she call me
在那里，她为什么要打电话给我
and not only that I got a call
，不仅如此，我接到
10:00 from somebody in
一个来自
Mexico they said listen you better not
墨西哥的电话，他们说，听着，你最好不要
come here you don't want to be the next
来这里，你不想成为下
one who do you think these people are
一个，你认为这些 人们
then they a traffickers human
就是人贩子，人口
traffickers they they were they were
贩子，他们
after her for a while
追了她一段时间。
I think that my mom's the strongest
我觉得我妈妈是我认识的最坚强的
person I
人，
know she wants
她想要
answers but probably
答案，但可能
we never could get
我们永远得不到
them she wants to make someone
她想要的 让某人
responsible for those things but we
对这些事情负责，但我们
don't know if they really
不知道这些事情是否真的
exist I don't think think that anybody
存在，我认为没有人
knows the truth about
知道关于
Miriam not even us as a
Miriam 的真相，甚至我们作为一个
family I know that lot of people say
家庭，我知道很多人说
that somebody do it but
有人这样做 但
no no I know that she do it she was
不，我知道她这么做了，她
really
真的
upset all the drugs all the
很难过 所有的毒品，所有的
struggle come back to the same place
挣扎，都回到了同一个地方，
with
anything only her
只有她
memories about who she
对自己是谁的记忆，
was and think if I you see how her
想想如果我看到她的
LifeStar you will
LifeStar，你会
see wow she's
看到哇
really she really is a hero because
她真的是一个英雄，因为
everything that happened to her is she
发生在她身上的一切 她
don't give up until she can't hold it
不会放弃，直到她再也坚持不住
anymore
all this struggles from the past they
过去所有的挣扎都
start to coming to
开始向
her the sadness kill
她袭来悲伤杀死了
her yeah the
她，是的
sadness I was working up in the
悲伤我在城里工作，
city and it was one of my closest
这是我的一个 最亲密的
friends turn around to have you heard I
朋友转过身来，问你听到了吗？我
said heard
说听到了
what and she said Miriam mirams died and
什么，她说米里亚姆·米拉姆斯死了，
like I can't believe
我简直不敢相信，
it I did hope that there was a chance of
我真的希望
us all getting together and actually
我们有机会聚在一起，
sitting down as adults we were spending
像成年人一样坐下来度过
time together we went through a court
我们在一起的时候经历了一场官司，
case we never heard from your room
again after you my sweet
之后我们就再也没有听到过你房间的消息，亲爱的，
I look back on that time and I kind of
回想起那段时间，我有点难过，
just feel
sadness I was too immature to have dealt
我太不成熟了，没有妥善处理
with that
那种
situation
情况，
properly I'd never have reacted the way
我永远不会做出反应 就像
that I did then
我当时做的那样，
now
um if you could say something to Miriam
嗯，如果你现在能对 Miriam 说点什么，
now what is it that you'd say
你会说什么
I'll just tell her I'm sorry I
我会告诉她我很抱歉，我
think there are lots of theories as to
认为对于发生的事情有很多理论，
happened but a lot of trans people di by
但很多跨性别者
Suicide that's not because they're trans
自杀，这不是因为他们是跨性别者，而是
it's because of the life that the world
因为世界
gives us to leave if you take anybody
给了我们离开的生活 你每天都会虐待任何人，
and subject them to abuse every day
rejection I think
拒绝，我想
anybody would find that difficult to
任何人都会发现很难应对
cope
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fore for for
foreign
foreign
fore spee
fore spee
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spee no
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fire
fire
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